It's a half past two in the morning. I'm tired but I can't sleep. The ghosts that live inside my mind are scaring me again. I'm exposing them here one more time...
After crying on the shoulder of a dear friend who helped me to look inside of me and find a way in which maybe I can find my own answers, I've decided to share the things I was thinking of when I was laying on my bed some moments ago.
When I'm fragile as the way I'm now, I don't want to show me, I need to hide myself. That's why I've changed my picture on Facebook. In the picture before this one I was smiling, but I'm not smiling now. Actually, I'm crying inside. I keep on publishing my thoughts and feelings here and there because I have the necessity of doing it, it's stronger than me, but I need to hide me at the same time, being invisible to others, as if I was a ghost surrounding everybody in everywhere - I could do anything I wanted and nobody would catch me. Anyway, when I get better, I'll come back and change my picture again.
I'm tired of working, studying and thinking. I'm tired of me! The following weekend will be another holiday. I have an exam on Sunday, but I'll disappear on Monday. My destiny: the sea! I'm going to the beach alone. I need to be alone to rearrange all the things that are taking the peace away from me. Nobody but me can do it. Then, let's do what needs to be done!
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